If you’ve been reading this blog for any length of time then you’ll know that Mondays are usually a day for favourites. But given that the last two weeks have been filled with more heartache and tears than I had ever imagined I’d experience, it doesn’t feel possible, or right, to sit and write about happy things that have made me smile.
But still, amongst the grief and the shock and the numbing sadness that this fortnight has brought, there have also been many, many reasons to be thankful. And I know that if my family and I are going to get through this incredibly hard time we need to focus on and be thankful for all of the good while we try to process the loss of our beautiful Blossom.
So today I wanted to write about all of the things I have been thankful for over the past couple of weeks. I wanted to remind myself that there is always something to be grateful for, even if you have to look a little harder sometimes.
Knowing that I am part of the most incredible, loving and strong family in the world
I have never felt more lucky to be part of my clan. Tragedy can make or break a family, and seeing how ours has pulled together so tightly to weather these difficult weeks has filled me with pride. There is comfort in knowing that none of us will have to be alone in all of this.
Receiving so many messages of love and support
Knowing that so many people are sending their love and keeping my family in their thoughts has been heartwarming and we have all appreciated it so much. Thank you to everyone who has sent a text or an email or a Facebook message – it has meant so much to us all.
Getting to spend lots of time with the kids
We have been helping out with the little ones as much as possible since we’ve been home, and they have really helped to lift our spirits. It’s easier to smile when you’re getting toddler cuddles or watching the girls make up dance routines to their favourite songs. They are so precious and I know they will help us so much.
So many acts of generosity
Honestly, I have had my faith restored in human beings over the past few weeks. Friends and family have made huge pans of homecooked goodness for everyone, our workplaces have been incredibly generous with the time that we need and the sheer volume of flowers and cards is breathtaking. People can be so kind.
My lovely Sam
He has been incredible through all of this – babysitting the kids despite having zilch experience, cooking delicious food for all of my family and always being there for a huge squeeze at the end of a hard day. I have never been so grateful that I get to marry this incredible human.
All of our happy memories of Blossom
By far the thing I have been most grateful for is the fact that little Blossy was a part of our lives. It’s hard to know that we won’t make any more memories together, but I am so unbelievably thankful for all of the happy ones we got to share. Talking about her and reliving all of the good times this week has reminded me that we are all so lucky to have known her and love her and learn from her. The joy she brought into all of our lives far outweighs the pain of our grief.